I was cleaning my room yesterday, chucking and giving things away (again). So I threw away a big pile of papers – university papers. The ones I wrote, and the lecturers’ comments sheet. Somehow, I thought one day, I would read them again.
When I piled them up, I suddenly realise actually I hated university (minus the final year with my brilliant housemates). It took me 5 years… or 1 year after actually graduating.
Who tells you who you are? Can only be the old fortune-telling machines.
A few friends and I went to the Isle of Wight went away for the bank holiday weekend last week. We rented a car and because I passed my driving test a week before on the 20th May 2011, I happily drove these peeps from our hotel to Rosemary Vineyard and then to The Needles Park. I do miss driving, sometimes!
Anyway… We stopped by a place called the Arreton Old Village. The village itself has a collection of barns arranged in the way that reflected an English village 1000 years ago. These barns are now, of course, shops selling local produce, tourist souvenirs etc.
There was an old entertainment arcade, where the “Zodiac” stood. It is one of those “fortune-telling” machines, where you align the question you want to ask on the wheel to your zodiac sign, drop a dime and the indicator in the middle will reply: YES or NO.
I remember people used to ask me, “How could you be so optimistic?” I couldn’t quite give an answer. Now I do. It is because of a phrase that I have not used for a very, very long time.
December+Snow+Heavy Snow+London
Not a very familiar combination. Heathrow Airport was closed. I monitored the airline website, airport website and weather forecast, like everyone else who was eager to fly out of this country. I nearly burst into tears when I know realistically, it is almost impossible that I can fly out tomorrow on time.
There must be a way for me to think quick, think flexible. There must be a way so that I can train myself to respond to problems more intelligently. There must be a way I can make my mind sharper to improvise around situations.
I know I like structures, advanced planning and things along those lines. Now it is becoming a weakness. Time to turn things around and try a different way.